repost: beyond recognition

This post from 12 the hard way is right on the money for me today.

I’m getting everything wrong-sized in my head, then taking that attitude into everyday situations.

I don’t know about its placement in the Steps per se, but I’m pretty sure there needs to be one that specifically says: “Oh, and do something about your anger issue, Greg.”

Admittedly, I’m a mess. And simply quitting drinking won’t do a damn thing about that; I got that. And the Steps, as they are written, aren’t going to solve every little problem in my life; I got that, too. Yeah, yeah, I know. drinking is a disease. Fine. What if I don’t have a disease? Maybe my drinking is driven by unresolved anger and resentment, and I need some real help in dealing with it.

Have I ever think about that?


Oh, well. Read this stuff. Food for thought from Paul W.

12 the hard way

If I know that most of my thoughts and strongly held beliefs are nothing more than constructs used by my disease to keep me miserable, isolated and alone, waiting for the day when everything’s finally been torn down for good, so that I may spend the rest of my days in a self-made prison, then why do I give it so much credence?

Step 4: made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

I’ve clung to the idea of “constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves” since I first heard it read in a meeting.  If there was ever a sentence that could set me apart, separate me from the rest and therefore keep me special, this was it.  It’s the one time where the program itself shrugs its shoulders at the lost causes.  Hey, some people are just fundamentally broken.  Tough love from the…

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I believe chocolate in virtually any configuration is the finest dessert in the history of mankind. I believe my wife is the sexiest woman in the world. I believe modern capitalism will never be replaced by a different -- or better -- form of economics. I believe in clutch hitting in baseball. I believe the Kimber 1911 .45 ACP is the finest handgun ever made in America. I believe the Mossberg Flex 500 pump-action 12 gauge shotgun is the best home defense ever made in America. I believe Tom Waits is the best songwriter of my generation. I believe unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. I believe in equality for everyone, except reporters and photographers. As CS Lewis once beautifully wrote, I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else. I believe that, on balance, Christianity has done more good for humans than bad. I believe it is better to tell the truth than a lie. I believe it is better to be free than to be a slave. I believe it is better to know than to be ignorant, With that being said, I believe there is a profound difference between knowledge and wisdom. I believe if I yell at the TV during a Colts game, they will play better. Finally, I believe I am in long-term recovery from a number of deep-seated issues that supported and drove my addictions.