Money quote from 12 the hard way:
. . . It’s a chemical disease that plays around with my thoughts, feelings and perceptions. It’s serotonin, dopamine, and opioid peptides, even more so than childhood bullies and adult failings. It takes my natural emotions, and instead of assuring me that they’re completely normal things to be feeling, goes looking for something out of my control to point at. Something I cannot change and cannot accept. And with that, my alcoholism is good to go. I’m angry and hopeless, depressed and resentful.
via back from zero.
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