repost: less than a week out of the hospital – what led up to it. part 1

Okay, start down below at A Bifurcated Life and read the whole thing.

I had my first auditory hallucination the week before and things were spiraling pretty quickly. Just a simple “Edward” spoken into my ear. Not a whisper and not a normal volume – just eerily calm. It both scared and embarrassed me as I was sure someone else in the room had been speaking to me.

Been there. Done that. Bought the t-shirt. But never put it down in writing the way inkedrunningman at Mary June’s Sobering Adventure did.

A Bifurcated Life

It’s been less than a week since I was released from the psychiatric ward of our local hospital. It feels like it was yesterday and at the same time a lifetime ago. I was admitted on 10/1 for a severe manic episode – voluntary admittance. Also 10/1 is my wife’s birthday.  So I owe her for that one for the rest of our lives. I was pretty sick when I went in. So everyone keeps telling me. When your therapist says you were acting crazy/off/strange I guess check in time is coming soon. With the delusion of mania it’s really hard to impossible to judge how others are seeing you or how you are actually acting. Like the curtain has been drawn over your personality. I had no desire to go into the hospital, I was not going to go and that was that.

I started to mess with my…

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I believe chocolate in virtually any configuration is the finest dessert in the history of mankind. I believe my wife is the sexiest woman in the world. I believe modern capitalism will never be replaced by a different -- or better -- form of economics. I believe in clutch hitting in baseball. I believe the Kimber 1911 .45 ACP is the finest handgun ever made in America. I believe the Mossberg Flex 500 pump-action 12 gauge shotgun is the best home defense ever made in America. I believe Tom Waits is the best songwriter of my generation. I believe unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. I believe in equality for everyone, except reporters and photographers. As CS Lewis once beautifully wrote, I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else. I believe that, on balance, Christianity has done more good for humans than bad. I believe it is better to tell the truth than a lie. I believe it is better to be free than to be a slave. I believe it is better to know than to be ignorant, With that being said, I believe there is a profound difference between knowledge and wisdom. I believe if I yell at the TV during a Colts game, they will play better. Finally, I believe I am in long-term recovery from a number of deep-seated issues that supported and drove my addictions.