repost: less than a week out of the hospital – what led up to it. part 1

Okay, start down below at A Bifurcated Life and read the whole thing.

I had my first auditory hallucination the week before and things were spiraling pretty quickly. Just a simple “Edward” spoken into my ear. Not a whisper and not a normal volume – just eerily calm. It both scared and embarrassed me as I was sure someone else in the room had been speaking to me.

Been there. Done that. Bought the t-shirt. But never put it down in writing the way inkedrunningman at Mary June’s Sobering Adventure did.

A Bifurcated Life

It’s been less than a week since I was released from the psychiatric ward of our local hospital. It feels like it was yesterday and at the same time a lifetime ago. I was admitted on 10/1 for a severe manic episode – voluntary admittance. Also 10/1 is my wife’s birthday.  So I owe her for that one for the rest of our lives. I was pretty sick when I went in. So everyone keeps telling me. When your therapist says you were acting crazy/off/strange I guess check in time is coming soon. With the delusion of mania it’s really hard to impossible to judge how others are seeing you or how you are actually acting. Like the curtain has been drawn over your personality. I had no desire to go into the hospital, I was not going to go and that was that.

I started to mess with my…

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