Daily Archives: October 17, 2014

do you bite your thumb at us, sir?

Allie at And Everything Afterwards chased the wolf away, but it got close enough she kind of flirted with it for a minute. Like we all do. It’s just we’re not all as honest — or as serious about our sobriety — as Allie.

And Everything Afterwards

Last night, lying in bed waiting for the day’s exhaustion to take over, I suddenly got hit with the world’s biggest craving for wine. It had been so long since I had a craving like that that it took me a minute to realise what I was feeling; it was as if a combination of amorphous thoughts coalesced, and then I suddenly got it. Hey, this thing that I’m thinking about and feeling, this is a sodding great big huge craving for wine. I really, really want a glass of wine.

I kind of explored it from the outside, because I knew I wasn’t actually going to get out of bed, go downstairs and pour a glass of wine. So it became an abstract object, which I poked at. How did it feel? What was different about this feeling, as opposed to the occasional idle ‘a glass of wine would…

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dv awareness: sticks and stones and words hurt

The labels were brutal for me. They were what I took into my heart when I was young and changed the way I viewed myself long before the abuse began. And it was more difficult to overcome the emotional damage than it was the physical damage.

The Abuse Expose' with Secret Angel

So many of us have been raised with the false words of the famous rhyme, “Sticks and stones may break your bones but words will never hurt you.” This is so untrue. Words hurt more than most people realize and inflict wounds on the souls of many from youth to adults…

Sticks and stones…
may break your bones…

but words won’t hurt you…
has NEVER been true.

FOR many words spoken…
can make you broken…

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the curse of of course

Heh heh heh. Words of wisdom from Paul W. at 12 the Hard Way today.

12 the hard way

Why does accepting bad things come easier than accepting good things?  That’s an easy answer, actually, and a bit of a tongue-twister:  Acceptance comes easy for things I’m expecting.  And since I’m always expecting the worst, guess what I’m always ready for?

Step 11:  sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.

It’s this half-assed, depressed, no-way-this’ll-work acceptance that I’m often confusing with Letting Go.  Of course the work project is fucked up:  I expected it, and now I’m accepting it, and letting it go.  Of course we’re fighting again:  I expected it, and now I’m accepting it, and letting it go.  Of course everything seems to be going wrong:  I expected it, and now I’m accepting it, and letting it go.

But that’s not what’s…

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