respost: my past is holding me back

One of my favorite bloggers learned a pretty big lesson bootlegging a 4th Step. She did a great job untangling it all in this post:

I came up with a dozen ways the event effected me, such as a sense of feeling unworthy, dirty, and shameful, which eventually led to my actions that were promiscuous and unsafe. The exercise became a ticket to beat myself up for every part of the event from start to finish. Hindsight is 20/20. I should have NEVER started with the biggest issue without some forethought.

Read the whole thing for a lesson in healthy and insightful perseverance.

My Healing Recovery

I watched a video of a guy talking to a group about how to do a 4th step in AA.  The speaker obviously knew the members in the workshop so it seemed like a meeting that regularly meets and this time they recorded it.  I liked the speaker so I watched the full 60 minutes.

A thought went through my head that maybe I shouldn’t be doing this by myself. I kind of know that the point of a sponsor is to walk me through the steps yet here I am thinking I can do it all on my own.  I’ll just learn how to do it from this guy in the video, I thought.  So, that’s what I did.

I made 4 columns just like they do in the big book with a place to write resentments, the cause, how did it effect me, and what did I do wrong and/or why am…

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I believe chocolate in virtually any configuration is the finest dessert in the history of mankind. I believe my wife is the sexiest woman in the world. I believe modern capitalism will never be replaced by a different -- or better -- form of economics. I believe in clutch hitting in baseball. I believe the Kimber 1911 .45 ACP is the finest handgun ever made in America. I believe the Mossberg Flex 500 pump-action 12 gauge shotgun is the best home defense ever made in America. I believe Tom Waits is the best song writer of my generation. I believe unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. I believe in equality for everyone, except reporters and photographers. As CS Lewis once beautifully wrote, I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else. I believe that, on balance, Christianity has done more good for humans than bad. I believe it is better to tell the truth than a lie. I believe it is better to be free than to be a slave. I believe it is better to know than to be ignorant. And I believe if I yell at the TV during a Colts game, they will play better.

2 thoughts on “respost: my past is holding me back

    1. greg w Post author

      fern: I so appreciate your unflagging honesty in everything you post. Step 4 is pretty much like eating the proverbial elephant — simply one bite at a time. You did pretty much begin with an entire mouthful. Glad to see you had good people around you to help you process stuff.

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