who, me?


This is an easy one for me. Seriously. Sometimes I think this is what recovery too frequently tends to run towards. And most of us hear this sooner or later, right? “Hey, at least I’m not drinking and/or drugging” as though that were the only camel in the tent. The rude awakening for us somewhere down the road of sobriety is we come to the realization that, “Crap, I’m like this when I’m sober, too. Damn.” It isn’t until that little insight settles in that we may choose to decide to settle in for the long haul, because this recovery thing is likely to take a lot longer than we thought. And it’s apparently going to involve a lot more effort than simply not picking up another bottle or jamming some more meth up our frayed nostrils. The tension enters into the process when we start placing too much value on the stuff we’d rather hold onto — not the booze or the drugs — but the personal junk we mistakenly believe gives our lives place and purpose. Fortunately, it’s no one else’s responsibility in these rooms to remind us how lame we are and how far we have to go in our healing. Seriously.

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About greg w

I believe chocolate in virtually any configuration is the finest dessert in the history of mankind. I believe my wife is the sexiest woman in the world. I believe modern capitalism will never be replaced by a different -- or better -- form of economics. I believe in clutch hitting in baseball. I believe the Kimber 1911 .45 ACP is the finest handgun ever made in America. I believe the Mossberg Flex 500 pump-action 12 gauge shotgun is the best home defense ever made in America. I believe Tom Waits is the best songwriter of my generation. I believe unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. I believe in equality for everyone, except reporters and photographers. As CS Lewis once beautifully wrote, I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else. I believe that, on balance, Christianity has done more good for humans than bad. I believe it is better to tell the truth than a lie. I believe it is better to be free than to be a slave. I believe it is better to know than to be ignorant, With that being said, I believe there is a profound difference between knowledge and wisdom. I believe if I yell at the TV during a Colts game, they will play better. Finally, I believe I am in long-term recovery from a number of deep-seated issues that supported and drove my addictions.